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Vol. 1 / Issue 21 / December 11 1997

Contents of this issue

EDITORIAL

A new life in Christ



News Items (Common to all issues) :

Standing in the Gap - Fasting prayer on 8th Dec.. 2015

Download Articles in Handheld Computers

Please Join us in "Peace Prayer Room"

Your Spam Folder

Hindi / Malayalam/Tamil Bible Online

Through the Valley of Death

Free Tutorials for your Kids!

Allah and Elohim - Are they the same God? Book

Free E-Cards

Online Games for you!



EDITORIAL

When I went to office on last Friday I was really surprised to see the beautiful decorations for Christmas. I could not believe on my eyes that the same people who were celebrating hollowin 1&1/2 months back now in preparation to celebrate Christmas. I started thinking how they can worship God and devil both at the same time.

Bible says in Mat 6:24, "No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon."

Yes, we can't serve two masters, we have to choose only one master. Whom you will choose God or devil?

I am publishing a life story of bro. Rick. For more detail you can visit his home page at MBK's Home Page

If you have any prayer request please feel free to send it to us. We will pray for you.



A new life in Christ

By Rick

I was born in Cleveland Ohio in 1965, I have one stepsister who is five years older then me. We moved to a small town in Pennsylvania of about fifty people. There I lived with my mother, grandmother and sister for the better part of my younger life. My mom who had emotional problems would take out her frustration on me, by severe beatings and mental abuse. She gave me up too many family members at a very young age because she could not take the pressure of raising a child on her own. My mother would state often how she wished she never had kids. How I reminded her too much of my dad, and because of that she was very angry with me. This was a guy that I had never met. They told me only of my father's faults and other family members would say that I would never amount to anything because of him. My family told me at a young age that I was retarded and few even said demons possessed me. At the age of two my mom gave me to my aunt, and abusive step uncle. While with my aunt, my two male cousins sexually abused me repeatedly. This continued till I returned to my mother. They sent me back to my mom in time to attend kindergarten. My mother would work so much that I was left with a strict bitter resentful grandmother who showed little to no love or emotion. I was left alone, as my family would spend 2-3 hours in town shopping, as often as three nights a week. The family did not want to admit that sexual abuse was going on, they would listen to what would happen during the times I spent home alone. After awhile I just accepted this as how life was to be like but why would the church not accept it? As the years went by, I struggled within the four walls of an Assembly of God Church, a place of refuge and at times a place of pain. I grew to associate pain and hypocrisy and my twisted life of homosexual tendencies within the place where many would find security.At the age of 15 I moved from my small town, after my mom could no longer correct me and I started fighting back from her beatings. I moved to Cleveland, where I lived with my aunt and cousin. There I lived with no rules and I felt free because I was in a new environment and could do whatever I wanted with no restrictions. School became a hang out for me and the friends I met, had introduced me to drugs and alcohol. At 18 I became introduced to the gay bars and a deeper lifestyle, I felt good about it because there they accepted me. I experimented with the bar, drug and alcohol scene and the one nightstand. I was very happy, well excepted and fulfilled. Nevertheless, I still felt empty and most of all

I was for sure that Jesus was still not accepting this for my life. I lived a life of mistaking identity for four years until one day when I woke up depressed and very alone. Though I still felt that something was missing, I tried everything but was unable to control the mass depression that now controlled my life and actions. Feeling confused and alone, with a battle that raged within, knowing what I was taught to be right not being able to live it, led me to total confusion. I chose the doctrine of hate and disgrace that sent me away rejected and alone. " God You made me like this and you allowed these things to happen to me" On the other hand I thought."It is wrong. This is not the will of God for me. However, it feels so right or I would not be like this" . . Because I do love Jesus and He wants me to be happy. Living with this war inside my mind and voices telling me "All you have to do to be free is DIE." It was on a fall day Oct. 30, 1987, after being drained and rejected and felt as I did for most of my childhood life, I tried to end my life.

After talking to a few friends I decided to call off from work. I was hearing strong demands within my confused mind and the pain from my hollow out heart kept crying. I could not take it anymore. So I took an overdose of sleeping pills. All I could remember next was feeling really tired. Then I heard people yelling around me, someone said, "We found him lying in the middle of his living room floor, in a fetal position clutching a bible to his chest." I was coming to on the operation table seeing pills floating out of me via a tube in my throat. After my visit to the ER, I went to the mental hospital for three weeks and there they diagnosed me with being a manic depressant. I prayed. "God if you don't want me to be gay then you are going to have to put someone in my life who once walked, where I'm at today." After they let me out of the hospital, I continued in the path of destruction that led me to the New Age movement and meditation. I continued there with an increase of drinking and drugs to get me through the days and nights. I started hearing voices again and the voices became real and I started getting depressed. I started to pray for fear of my life. Then one night it happened, I remember this night so well as if it were yesterday. A friend that I had not heard from in a long time, and did not know of my suicide attempt, called me in my most depressed state. They invited me to visit a church where God delivered the pastor from homosexuality and now ministers to the inner city. It was all over from that point. As I walked into the church, Friday night, I saw people filled with love and concern to welcome this cold, broken hearted sinner. I sat in the back of the church with bitterness and hatred inside me. I sat with my arms folded hoping that no one would talk to me. The music began to play, it was an old hymn that I remembered from my childhood, God started to work on my heart. Nevertheless, nothing broke through like the word that the pastor ministered directly to me in the middle of his sermon, as the Lord spoke through him.

As the pastor stood before me and embraced me my heart melted. I became alive as the tears flowed from my eyes, this time tears of joy and not of depression or despair. I was on my way to receiving my healing. God used that night to prove in myself to me that He was faithful and true to his word that He would send someone to me who has been where I walked. Since then I have recovered and continue to grow, in knowing the faithfulness of the Lord. I have days and have made wrong choices since but even more so have learned the mercy and grace that come when I cry Abba Father!

I now live a fulfilling life with two children and a wonderful supporting wife. My wife is my life and best friend. We labor together in a ministry that the Lord has recently led us into, one that works and out reaches to homosexuals, and soon to include sexual addictions and abuses. With a nondenominational church backing, and guidance from a local ministry, which deals in sexual struggles.




Standing in the Gap - Fasting prayer on 8th Dec.. 2015

As the Bible says in Ezekiel 22:30 "So I sought for a man among them who would make a wall, and stand in the gap before Me on behalf of the land, that I should not destroy it." And also the Bible says in Numbers 16:48, "And he (Aaron) stood between the dead and the living; so the plague was stopped." We have fasting prayer every second Tuesday of each month. Our next fasting prayer meeting will be conducted on 16th Nov. 2015

Download Articles in Handheld Computers

You can now download articles in Palm Doc format for your palm handheld computer. It will work with any devise that has Palm OS and Palm Doc Reader installed. To download click on the link named "Palm Doc Format" i.e. at the top of this page by the side of each articles.

Please Join us in "Peace Prayer Room"

If you have any prayer request please join us any time at our New Chat Room at http://insearchofpeace.org/prayer If any of us available in prayer room, we will be praying online otherwise you can email your prayer request to feedback@insearchofpeace.org

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Hindi / Malayalam/Tamil Bible Online

Now you can read Bible in Hindi online at http://www.hindibible.org
in Malayalam online at http://www.malayalambible.org
in Tamil online at http://www.hindibible.org?ver=tamil

Through the Valley of Death

As many of you know that in the year 2005, our dad was very sick even unto death. God miraculously healed him. We have compiled it in a book form. I sure believe that it will inspire you and encourage you greatly.

This book is available for purchase at JasmineCorp Store

Free Tutorials for your Kids!

Now you can learn Graphics and web designing online. These tutorials are free but you may need to get login ID by registering yourslef. Currently tutorials for Paint Shop Pro, HTML and Dreamweaver/Fireworks are available but in future more tutorials will be added.

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Allah and Elohim - Are they the same God? Book

Now available "Allah and Elohim - Are they the same God" Available at JasmineCorp Store, and "Is Jesus God?" Available at JasmineCorp Store,

Both books compares the Bible and the Quran and read eye opening facts about Jesus, God of the Bible, Allah and Islamic faith. I am sure that you want to read this.

Also read:
Book Title: Is Jesus God?
Author: Sherly Isaac
ISBN: 0759628092
http://insearchofpeace.org/books.htm

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